You see,
you don't just turn your back on someone you have devoted eleven
years of your life to, someone you have loved more than anyone else
in the universe."
I wondered if a con artist would devote eleven years of his life
to a guru.
"I had to make sure that the Negative Forces were not playing tricks
on my mind," he continued. "So I decided to visit New York and meditate
on the Guru in person. I found that he still looked like Guru.
But inwardly I could see right away that he had lost his power."
I wondered if I could have detected a change.
"When the Guru began to meditate, it became clear that he was not
entering into samadhi--though the disciples still believed that he was.
Nonetheless, I wanted to be absolutely certain that the Negative
Forces were not clouding my vision. So I visited Apeksha, a Queens,
New York, disciple who has studied with the Guru for as long as I have.
"At first, Apeksha thought I was crazy. But after we spent
hours looking at old Guru photos, neither of us had any doubt
as to what had happened.
"Apeksha is now in a real bind. On the one hand, he can see
that the Guru has fallen. On the other hand, he knows that he's
not strong enough yet to ward off the Negative Forces on his own.
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